I’m not quite sure why my weight was such an issue during my teenage years, especially as I had a fairly active childhood. However from about 5th grade on, I was a bit chunkier than my peers. It wasn’t quite until my Senior year of High School that I decided to do something about it. I was in a community production of Les Mis that ran for about two months. By the end of it, I had had enough of my body. I had been noticing for some time the level of disregard with which certain people tended to treat me. In addition. I noticed myself repeatedly being cast in ‘old man’ roles in my High School shows. I wasn’t the right type for the younger and leading roles, even though I had the voice for them. The final straw was someone referring to me as fat on the internet, not intending for me to see. I started on October 22, 2012, the day after this incident occurred. I began going to the gym each day just to run. I would run for roughly 30 minutes a day after school. With a lot of stubborn determination to make a change, adjustments to my diet, and a LOT of help from Kelly Clarkson, I started to notice huge differences, and I actually lost thirty pounds in the first two months. By the end of my Senior year, I was down seventy pounds, which was my goal. By the end of 2013, I was down eighty.
In 2015, however, something else sparked. I felt average, which was definetly a step up from where I had felt so long. But I wanted to be seen as more than average. Maybe because I am young and want to be impressive, maybe because I still didn’t like the way I looked in certain clothes, maybe because young gay males are held to nearly impossible physical standards to be deemed attractive. We’ve all faced that pressure and bias on top of many others. But I think that, again, I wanted to challenge myself and see how far I could push my body. And over the Summer of 2015, I learned how to properly lift (bruh) got into the best shape of my life (until 2017!). My good friend and I constantly checked up on one another and motivated each other to keep going.
In 2016, I gained some of the weight back due to stress, but not very much, and 2017 started off as a reset. By June, I was back to a place that I was happy with.
Below is a delightful collection of the most flattering photography of yours truly from between about 2011 and 2012. I would like to make it known that I am as against body shaming as it is possible to be. However, I do have to point out that I did NOT know my angles, and therefore these photos are highly entertaining to me.
Since my face and ‘after body’ is all over this website, I’m gonna limit the after pictures. But below are a few 🙂
Below is a selection of some of the photos that I have posted on Facebook in an album titled ‘Posing With Foods I Shouldn’t Eat’ which began in 2013 on a long, boring night in State College, PA. It has become a hit among my friends, particularly the captions, which are popular song lyrics re-imagined to be about my unique relationship with the food in question.